okay, you get the basic irony, right? a woman comes into a man's life, causes him to question everything (she's a question-generating lady) and then she leaves him because he's not like the questions she conjured.
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so the guy's a bit bitter. (not bitter 'at', just bitter) but he's also a reality buddhist. 'what shall we do now?' he says, although who the 'we' is is not clear. he starts by putting away bitter and thinking about a perverse universe. okay, then: 'what shall we do now'? remains.
all of a sudden, there is no gravity. if relationship to someone is really his everything then he now has nothing. which means he has nothing to lose. it seems like the big choices are:
• social
•solipsistic
as i look at my own character, i think that i've got one foot in each. lacking organizational skills, if i go social, i am a follower. if i go solipsistic i still have the whole problem with meaning thing.
i suspect that my truth is that i can only find my self in an intimate relationship. and the irony is that my self has set it up so that i can't have one.
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